I am a rich peacock palette kinda girl! I like nice things; I know my worth and I am not ashamed to admit that… but I was still shrinking… giving myself and my business away… now that is completely fine if that is what you want to do, or as a showing of generosity… but that is not the way to put food on the table… and with 2 teenage boys… that’s a lot of food required.
What was really required was permission and approval, but whose was I looking for? I intellectually knew that I did not require anyone to bless my actions or the steps I was taking in my business. I really didn’t give a shit what people thought about me… or did I?
The truth is, I did care… at a deep core level, my little Jami was still looking for approval.. But why? I have a great mindset (again – that’s what I told myself), I have a great business (yep, there’s that confidence again) and my spiritual connection is amazingly accurate (ok… this one is for sure true!)…. what was my disconnect?
I was dealing with beliefs that I wasn’t even aware of. I couldn’t form sentences around them and still these beliefs… they were fucking everything up…. just as I was about to break through them… they would anchor in and make sure that I knew that it wasn’t safe to step out of my comfort zone… I really did NEED approval from others, especially my mother… oh ya about that permission… not granted!
Well, what the hell am I supposed to do now? I was plagued by beliefs I couldn’t see, identify or explain… and I had no idea where they started, so I turned to my old stand by…. my morning meditation.
I got real with myself and drew a line in the sand… no more excuses… So I spent hours excavating and digging these beliefs… working through them and finding more… then I called one of my soul sisters to whine to her about the hours that I was spending on this mindset shift… and that’s when it all became clear… the moment she articulated the exact belief I was trying to clear… she knew it was there… she could see it… She didn’t have blinders on when it came to me and my blocks… That blindspot is a real bitch!
Robin held my hand through that belief and I have literally moved mountains in my business since then! This summer, I have worked fewer hours than ever before, but that has been without anyone’s approval, except mine!!! Those hours have proven to be some of the most profitable my business has ever seen… and best of all I have given myself permission and approval!!!
Claim your own birthright…. Here is your permission!
